Tears

Its just water coming out of our eyes at various moments. We cry out of pain, we are too happy to express our emotions, the onion is too strong, we are driving too fast and much more! The list of reasons just goes on and on.
I used to cry a lot when I was a little baby. It used to give me a feeling of being weak and later I realized that I was just not able to control my emotions. I learned how to control it and still sometimes I cry but not so often and I don't feel weak anymore. I like those things getting out of my head in form of tears and once they are gone they just lose the power to make me cry and then I am like "Screw you" to that problem!
But its not so easy always. Somethings just keep coming in your head again and again and make you go all quiet and lost.
By just listening to a song, having a nice emotional conversation, having a memory in your mind, seeing a scene in movie or something, going through old hidden photographs and boom the flow starts! It is not in our control then and the best thing to do then is to cry as much as you want to and let go all the feelings(they can be either bad or good)which are making you cry.
Tears of pain can be really hurtful which keeps on coming at unwanted times for a long time. Sometimes they are easy to control and sometimes they are even worse than the reason. The pain which comes out in the form of tears is so strong. That mind needs so much of love and care and if it does not get it then it just keep screwing with itself! The person goes in a very famous mode called depression.
And the tears of joy! Well they are priceless. The happiness and peace they give is so soothing and refreshing that the person would not want anything more than that but in this selfish, crazy and bitchy world many few humans are blessed with the tears of joy so just enjoy the moment when life gives you those tears because it is a rare thing.
It would not happen often.What happens often would just fuck up with your mind and everything. So be prepared to have those kind of tears more and soon you will realize either you are out of tears or the reasons behind those tears do not bother you anymore and that is kind of a nice feeling.

Plans

Do they always work the way you want them to?
Well not always but sometimes they do.
I had my plans but lately they are not working the way they should. Few days more and the results will be in front of me and they are going to decide my whole one year and I have got a hunch that I will be screwed real bad.
It creeps me out when I know I am the loser now. I know I could have put more efforts and I can come up with zillion reasons why I did not but that would be cheating myself only. Its not like I was sitting like a lazyass doing nothing. I did work for the things I wanted but I did not give my best shot!
Things have not turned as I expected them to be and now here I am, clueless and helpless. All the mess I have done is in front of me and I do not know how to clean it up!
At some places I did really good but it seems it is not enough.The main thing got screwed.
People expected more out of me, I disappointed them and seeing their reactions now gives me that loser feeling more and more.
Instead of the judgement and lame opinions, I want some support and love.
Everyone screws up and what they want at that time is some understanding and support not judgement and criticism! If you cannot give the first two things then do not bother to give the last two. Its good to be straight-forward but there are always gentle ways to express your views.
So if the person is already feeling low because the plan did not work well then do not judge. Let him/her be rational again and then he/she will take the best decisions.
All they NEED to get back on the plan is some TIME and SUPPORT!

Sex or love making?

This is one topic on which i can keep on talking and talking :P
Talking about sex/making love is still a taboo in the society but who cares now !!


Who does not want to do it? No one. Obviously which sexually normal person does not want to be loved?

Its just people do not say it out loud. I do not understand what is the problem in it. If you consider it as a personal issue then its fine but if you are yourself doing it and pretending it as a big deal in front of others then you are no less than a hypocritical jackass! And you are surrounded by such jackasses and may be you are also one of them(no offence).

Now the question is, does sex and love making have the same concept?
Umm well biologically its same but mentally it differs from person to person. Out of lust if you are doing it then its definitely sex and if you are getting emotionally, physically and mentally connected with your partner while doing it then you are making love and it is going to be one of the best memories of your life (Do not ever regret it if you are no more with that person)
Our parents did not have sex when we came on this planet, they made love and making us and then raising us(if you are not an asshole) gives them all the pleasure and peace in the world!

Love making is one of the most beautiful concept of nature which is obviously ruined by us humans by various ways like rape and pornography.
But seriously very few people believe in this love making thing. They go for sex and enjoy it. Friends with benefits, fuck buddies etc are the new ways of defining when you are getting laid. Its entirely one's choice. At the end of the day you are doing it and enjoying it.
Everyone out there who has done it or doing it is not a horny bastard or slut.
There is always a story behind it and the reason can be anything, love or lust or need, anything!

Frozen feelings

We say time moves on and so does the feelings but do actually the feelings(I am talking about real feelings, not some stupid idiotic temporary ones) change by themselves or we change them by deciding what to feel and what not to?

Time passes away so quick when you are happy and when you are not, you actually realize each and every second! But we keep moving on, after all we are humans of the modern age but we should actually ask ourselves do we really move on or leave behind the past? Try not to answer it if you are not strong enough to handle the truth right now.

And feelings!
Well they can be bad or good. Bad ones make our eyes go tearful and the good ones bring the best smile on our face.
And here I ask the same question again, Do we really move on from the bad ones?
NO(this is the answer of a cynical person)
We say we have moved on to feel strong in front of others and ourselves but when anything related happens we go back in past for at least few seconds and then it entirely depends on us, for how much time we live in our past then.
Past never actually leaves us, it stays forever and keeps reliving all feelings time to time.
We tend to move away from anything that is unpleasant and we do the same with the feelings. Trying to get rid of them is the most stupid human effort because its our heart which feels not the practical brain so when it comes to feelings brain+heart is the best combo. Trust me!                                                        
These frozen feelings are a pain in the ass sometimes but then thinking how much time has changed us from that time is a relief only when you have gone matured and if you have not then get matured!
But seriously there is always a smile on our face thinking about the time before the tsunami of painful feelings hit us and that is the actual pretty smile because a feeling is painful only if you have had the best time before that.