And he says...

He says I am closed inside a box.
He says I need to say out loud what is mine.
He says I need to open up and say what is in my mind.
He says I need to see pros before cons
He says I need to have more faith.
He says I need to have hope.
He says I will find someone of my kind one day.
He says I need to get a control over my mood swings.
He says forget the past, live in the present.
He says time keeps changing and you never know what is next?
He says I need to express more.
He says this world is full of liars but I can find honesty if I put my efforts.
And then he says I just need to be myself and when the right time comes he will find me!


Then after a deep pause

I say, I have lost the key to unlock me.
I say, I will be loud enough but what if I lose the control?
I say, I will say my words but who is going to listen to them.
I say, what if there are no pros at all?
I say, I have faith but slowly I am losing it and I dont know how to get it back.
I say, I am always hopeful but now the hope is losing me.
I say, I dont have a kind, I just want right.

I say, the on and off switch of the mood swings do not want to work anymore.
I say, I am way past my past but present does not seem to like me.
I say, I am waiting for the next to happen since when I do not remember now.
I say, I am expressive in my own way only the proper understanding is needed.
I say, I know what is out there in the world but I do not know where to put my efforts.
And then I say, I will be myself one day and I know once he finds me, I wont let him leave ever.
I will give him his goodmorning kiss
I will give him the hug to keep him doing well all day long.
I will put his head in my lap and kiss him goodnight.
I wont make him the king but would make him The Man of my life!
And I sit there quiet and with hope that one day he will find me.