Why?

You can add this question to anything and make it weird!

Why did I buy that top, Why dont I listen to my parents even when they are right?, Why dont I sleep on time, Why dont I eat proper food, Why do I get so moody in just a friction of seconds?, Why did I buzz that person, Why dont I reply to that person, Why do I waste my day/s :P, Why did I actually download this crap :|( may be because of someone hot in lead :P), Why do I keep looking at those pictures?, Why I still want to hear those songs at times, Why do 'once important things' do not matter to me anymore and.....

The reason "why?" is in my head is because of the change going to happen in my life right now. I am going to change my city for studies. Yes, I am happy about because it is going to be a whole new life I wanted but now I am like "why I have to leave?"
May be because I am going away from my asshole buddies but I am getting closer to few too so yayyiiee :D. May be because I have gone super-duper ultra lazy from just lazy during my stay at home :P.

Life is going to change now, I know. I will be depressed and stressed due to the pressure but this is the life I chose. This is the life for which I tried (not so hard though :P) for months. But it is going to teach me so many things and I know it will be a beginning to things I am going to love :)
I still think I should have worked hard a bit more and could have landed at the places I wanted! Yes, places( I am greedy). I wanted nice options. Then I would have been the one who would have made the ultimate choice of getting in or out.

It is not like I am going away for years but yes I know I am going away from family :( I wont be a kid like I used to be. I will have to be more responible and crap like grown ups!

And my "why" question again arises for thinking about the stuff I am way past through but still it is popping in my head because of the change! This the reason of hate part of my love-hatred relationship with changes. They make you think weird things and things you do not want to recall.

Anyways I know I am going to be like this for few more days till I start loving the new city, new life, new people around, THE NEW CHANGE!
Damn I love the way life works! And if you add a "why?" to it then you are never going to get an answer and that is the most killing and amazing part!

TRUST

One of the heavist word I have came across. You put it in the wrong thing or wrong person and you are screwed real bad. But people today are too smart. Everyone has trust issues and that is because of the baggage that person is carrying but at the end of the day we are humans. We get fooled some or the other time and we never stop learning from our mistakes. I am talking about one's personal life here not the professional one. If you make such mistakes there then buddy you are actually screwed! (but you can recover from it).

It does not come in a day or two. It requires time.Long time. Good and bad both. If someone tells you just after few days knowing her/him that she/he trusts you then please please please keep in mind that she/he would not take few minutes to get over the situation and certainly she/he is unaware of the meaning of the word.
Emotions and feelings are diluted in this era. People are selfish. You, me and everyone. But what matters is how diluted are the emotions and feelings? Very few times people actually mean what they are saying and even if they mean what they are saying, you never know till when they will stick to their words because feelings do change and the unspoken words do come out one day.

I am not being cynical here but yes this is the scenario. People hurt you intentionally and unintentionally. I am not saying everyone is going to break your trust but yes at some point of time somethings will happen which will shake your trust. You have to hold on then. Do not let it affect your feelings or emotions. Try to be more strong. Life is too short to spend while holding grudges within yourself. Enjoy your life. Let all the emotions and feelings come out. Just because of a single (or sometimes multiple) awful incident, do not change the way you take things. Be more careful but do not hold yourself.

Do not trust someone so much, so that any unpleasant incident can shake you. Trust enough to have a healthy relationship. If the relatinoship is worth it, your intuitions will guide you properly.
So do not deal with emotions as a task. And when it comes to trust, BE CAREFUL!

Memory lane!

It gives you all types of feelings and makes you feel each and every emotion you once had. The laughter, the wtf situations, the sensible and super-matured talks, the songs once on top of your playlist, the idiotic funny situations, desktop and cellphone's wallpapers, the late night maggi meals, the tears, the random and last moment dinners, the super-short crushes, the days with no money in pockets, the moments when your balance went zero and you were desperate to talk and you could do nothing about it, the long hours sitting on the roadside with a bunch of friends, the ugly dirty fights, the last minute submissions, break-ups, patch-ups and much more!
Every moment you live adds to your memories and then you decide whether it is worth memorizing or not and sometimes your heart does the job for you :)
Life sometimes goes through major transition and coping with it gets tough but then the memories created before the transitions make you strong. Life changes and so does the people in it. Memories remain intact and then fade away but even when they are old, you can actually feel the emotion you felt when that thing happened.
Those things define the present you. They have made you what you are now. Some people are afraid of past or do not like to think about it. Personal reasons. But according to me, past makes you strong. It has given you all kinds of memories. It has built your memory lane! Sometimes a little walk through it would do no harm. It will make you realise what you were and what and why you are like this now!? So instead of hating it or running from it, face it. Look at the brighter side and trust me you will enjoy it :)