Why?

You can add this question to anything and make it weird!

Why did I buy that top, Why dont I listen to my parents even when they are right?, Why dont I sleep on time, Why dont I eat proper food, Why do I get so moody in just a friction of seconds?, Why did I buzz that person, Why dont I reply to that person, Why do I waste my day/s :P, Why did I actually download this crap :|( may be because of someone hot in lead :P), Why do I keep looking at those pictures?, Why I still want to hear those songs at times, Why do 'once important things' do not matter to me anymore and.....

The reason "why?" is in my head is because of the change going to happen in my life right now. I am going to change my city for studies. Yes, I am happy about because it is going to be a whole new life I wanted but now I am like "why I have to leave?"
May be because I am going away from my asshole buddies but I am getting closer to few too so yayyiiee :D. May be because I have gone super-duper ultra lazy from just lazy during my stay at home :P.

Life is going to change now, I know. I will be depressed and stressed due to the pressure but this is the life I chose. This is the life for which I tried (not so hard though :P) for months. But it is going to teach me so many things and I know it will be a beginning to things I am going to love :)
I still think I should have worked hard a bit more and could have landed at the places I wanted! Yes, places( I am greedy). I wanted nice options. Then I would have been the one who would have made the ultimate choice of getting in or out.

It is not like I am going away for years but yes I know I am going away from family :( I wont be a kid like I used to be. I will have to be more responible and crap like grown ups!

And my "why" question again arises for thinking about the stuff I am way past through but still it is popping in my head because of the change! This the reason of hate part of my love-hatred relationship with changes. They make you think weird things and things you do not want to recall.

Anyways I know I am going to be like this for few more days till I start loving the new city, new life, new people around, THE NEW CHANGE!
Damn I love the way life works! And if you add a "why?" to it then you are never going to get an answer and that is the most killing and amazing part!