The Un-happiness

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It poisons your thoughts from inside. It makes you think of all of the bad stuff ever happened to you and makes you feel that your life is full of crap. It is a bitch, I swear! It makes you crazy in teeny tiny bits. You try to remain positive and calm but nothing helps. You feel like the loneliest person with no shoulders to cry on. You feel lazy, sad and pathetic. It makes you do things you never thought you would do and the worst part is you enjoy doing those things. It makes you listen to the same song again and again till you feel completely hollow. It changes you and turns you into a different person. A changed and different you. Whether you like it or not, it happens. You have fights with your loved ones. You want them to take care of you but somewhere you want to be all alone like you are some super-hero! You are confused about everything. You don’t want to face anyone, you don’t want to smile anymore and be sweet to anyone.

All you feel is depressed and shitty the whole time. You feel like doing nothing, just lying in bed over-thinking. You don’t feel anything, ANYTHING! Getting a glass of water seems like a herculean task. Your way of thinking, way to react at things, way to proceed with things changes and most of the times this change isn't good. You don't feel like picking any call but deep inside you keep hoping that someone would call and give you a good news that would cheer you up.

Let me tell you my way of getting through this.

Just think you are on your own. The people you trust, love and admire the most might not understand what you are going through. So just try to get through it all alone, you will feel so damn strong after all it is over. That phase is tough. Taking a shower also feels like a pain. You feel flawed all the time. Worthless totally! Let yourself free at that time. Don’t over-think, just don’t think. Smile only when you want to, don’t force yourself for something you don’t want to do. Soon you will feel better when you will get that you can go through this and then you can start thinking all the positive and optimistic stuff.

This unhappiness phase beats the crap out of you. You do feel pathetic and at the end of the day, you are the strongest you have ever been so just be patient while you are in this phase. But remember some or other day it will end. IT WILL.